dreams (3) 4/16/19 i hit challenger, dive, help a murderer, warn others about the murderer, trick an ogre, get rejected

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I hit challenger.

There's this super tall highboard for me to jump off of into this narrow well. It's so high, I feel the rush of fear. I turn up the water so that the distance to the water isn't so large, but now the well is super deep. I jump in and head for the bottom. It gets darker and darker...

There's an armored man murdering people left and right. He's literally smashing them in. I'm just watching but I have the feeling I'm helping him somehow. I see more people, people he's going to kill if they don't get out of the way, so I tell them to run! run!

I'm seated at an ogre's dinner table. I trick him somehow and escape. I makeshift a trip wire, blind him, and then scamper down the stairs as the ogre stumbles and is bound by my booby traps. Maika tries to do the same but fails a bit later.

I'm in the school library, near the front desk. I'm practicing Korean, and I'm whispering "happy" over and over again. Suddenly I'm aware of Hanah behind me, and I become self-conscious about my studying, but then Hanah turns around and says hi to me! I'm so happy, I completely stop listening to her, hahaha. I'm too busy thinking about how she's actually talking to me, what does this mean, what's changed... I'm so happy!

David shows up and says it's time to leave. I grab my stuff and prepare to join them, still grinning stupidly and I want to laugh with joy because I am no longer rejected, but when we get to the car they close the door before I can get in. I watch as they drive off without me.

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I will post later today when I have finished my first shift. I'm not permitted to talk about the clients, so it'll probably just be about my feelings.

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