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First shift. Whew.

I LITERALLY ONLY DID ONE CONVERSATION THE WHOLE TIME LOL.

Like I'm a writer, yada yada, so I took FOREVER to respond LOL. The one conversation took two hours!

But it was good.

It was good.

I can't talk about the texter, but I feel fulfilled. God is good... and I will get better with time. And I know I have given the texter hope...

The texter thanked me. Thanked me! I am so happy, even if I am exhausted now.

"The LORD delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love." --Psalm 147:11

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