dreams (2) 9/6/18 i meet justin (richard?) and his sister

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So I meet this guy, Justin. In my mind it's Justin, but I mean to say Richard. But his name is Richard in this dream for whatever reason. And he's with his sister and her car. We were going to meet up with Christy, but they've decided to ditch her. I'm not cool with that. I tell them that they shouldn't do that, so we turn tail and pick up Christy, and then we all go out for dinner.

Justin looks like Fuuk(?), and Justin's sister looks like Anna.

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